The Long Strange Trip It Has Been

Hi all,

Well, I emailed some of you and have talked with others about what has been going on. First of all I own you all a sorry for not writing on this. This is a great way to keep in touch with all of you, but if I do not regularly write in it then this way is useless. I hope you all can forgive me.


September 2004
Well this month was good but had some problems. I was joyful about it because the 23rd of September is my Spiritual Birthday. I meet Jesus back in 1995 and have grown since then. At times I feel like I still am a baby Christian, but those are lies. I know that we all (followers of Christ) go thought struggles and times where it seems that we walk alone. It feels like that at times, but I am just reminded that if we are being used by God then we will struggle with our walk. I wonder how that all works out but I know GOD IS GREAT.

Another piece of news from September that stopped me writing was when I went to the hospital. I was tested and found out that I have Diabetes. I was wondering if I did something wrong and God pushed me. I again saw a silver lining: By being Diabetic I am now aware of my health and am, for the first time ever, really paying attention to it. I see having Diabetes as a good thing because it is making me finally “getting up and working on making my body better.” I am Type 2, which means I take a medication instead of getting a shot.


October 2004
Now this is the time where my whole family started getting sick. Normally we would have gotten flue shots for the little ones (nephew Kevin and niece Trinity) but because of the lack of flue shots nationwide, we couldn’t do it and kids seem to get sick faster and longer then adults and when all of the adults in the house were better, the kids were sick still and got others sick again, then they got well, and then sick again. This flue sp[reads faster and stays longer then I first have thought and now realize that I have taken yearly flue shots for granted.


November 2004
Now we have my birth month. I turned 26 (I think born in 1978) this year and still was sick. I disliked this and had to pretend to be well because of my classes. I finally started feeling better this month, that was good, but its didn’t last long.


December 2004
Well, last month was good but I ended up getting sick again by someone at school. I past all my classes (two A’s and two B’s) and took some hard tests and wrote some good papers. I was thinking about writing in this after my Finals were over but I got so tried of writing I just wanted to take a break from it. I had 3 Final Essays and a Test (the test was to write an essay on a question).

Last Thoughts
Christmas was good this year and this year had some major changes, but all stays clear that no matter what the problem, Jesus is there and will always be there for me, for all of us.

2 Days

It’s been a very busy week. I just had to do a lot of school shopping (clothes, supplies, books, ect). I just have been using this week to get everything ready. I wonder if I am meant to be in school still at times. I don’t know if it’s the fact that this summer has been like no other summer I have had, or what. I just start classes Monday morning an go from there.

No big insights on the nature of God or the world tonight. Just been thinking about doing a weekly prayer and Bible study at my school’s chapel. I am going to pray about it.

Silver Lining

Well it happened this morning, my dog, Baby, died and my family took it hard. But I am trying to see the good in all of this. It is hard to see now but I am sure and know there is good to all of this. Right now I am happy because I know she isn’t hurting any longer. I will miss her but I know she is better off now. I do not know what happens to pets when they die, only God does, but she isn’t suffering any longer.

On the bright side of everything, I got my schoolbooks today and kind of looking forward to classes beginning. I have the rest of this week and then back to the working days of learning about novels and writers.

BAD & GOOD news

I don’t know why I haven’t written in a week or so.

BAD NEWS: Well I think my dog, Baby, may be on her last legs. I hate that sometimes, that we became so connected to our pets and the something happens and they die. She hasn’t yet, but my family and I are trying to make her feel better until the time comes. Besides the fact Baby is sick, life is still good. I just feel like I should do more. But I cannot, besides pray and hope and to be ready for the time.

GOOD NEWS: Life is good but the whole pet thing. I will miss her. I don’t know what to really say or do, but I do know that we need, that I need, to look toward the positive side of life. To see the goodness that God created.

The Long Week

 
Well, this week, I am so tried of summer break. I am just waiting for school to begin so I can have a small break. I mean I need something more to do then just taking the kids (nephew Kevin age 6, niece Trinity age 4) to the movies, and figuring out more about my computer. Today we saw the “Cat in the Hat,” I didn’t like it.

My best friend and fellow brother in the Lord, Owen, has gone on a weeklong mission trip to Mexico. He went with some others from his church, Lighthouse. He left Saturday and should be back latter this week. I hope all goes well for him.

I went to church Sunday morning and found out that my pastor, Pastor Jim, has asked the church board for a 6 month leave because of health related problems. I know Pastor Jim has been sick before and he had an accident a few weeks ago and that has not helped him. The church board has granted his leave and now he is at home, I think, healing and getting better.

Job?

 
The last few days I have been wondering, “what will I do as a job when school is over?” some of you may know, I go to ISU (Idaho States University) and am majoring in American Studies with the idea of transferring into the ISU Teacher-Education program.  Well I found out I may not be a good teacher, as in doing it by all and myself. Long story. I have been trying to figure out what I can do.

Well, tonight in study (Jay’s group), the lesson we watched talked about the job Jesus held, working with wood. It seems that wood wasn’t used a lot back in his day. By looking at the buildings and household things, and ect., we call see everything was made of stone. Jesus was a stone carver. Now that was something to think about?

Well, by talking about Jesus’ job, I began thinking about what I will do as a job.

*What skills do I have?
Well, skills are learned in school and are given by God. All of my college classes are in the areas of Teacher-Education, Political Science, Literature, and History. I believe God has given me the natural ability to break down things that is hard to understand and to make it simpler. I do not know for sure.

*What is my calling?
I know my calling has something to do with the “youth.” I always thought I was meant to be a Youth Pastor. Even helped out at my church with the Youth Group when I was 1st saved (age 15) and even became a Sunday School teacher for some teaching the high school class over at the church.

*What is my desire?
Well my desire is to follow Jesus. I want to give Him everything. I love to teach others and help them to learn.
 I am still trying to figure things out and will let you all know when I figure it all out. I just need a lot of prayer on this issue.

Worship

This song has been going in and out of my head fo the last few days. I think it’s freash in my head because I am feeling this way. 

                      WHEN THE MUSIC FADES (THE HEART OF WORSHIP) 
When the music fades, all is stripped away, And I simply come; Longing just to bring something that's of worth That will bless your heart,
                                                 (bridge)
I'll bring you more than a song, For a song in itself Is not what you have required. You search much deeper within Though the way things appear, You're looking into my heart  
                                                 (chorus)
I'm coming back to the heart of worship, And it's all about you, All about you Jesus. I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it, When it's all about you, All about you, Jesus.   King of endless worth, no one could express How much you deserve. Though I'm weak and poor, all I have is yours, Every single breath  
                                       (now go to the bridge)